I have a great husband and two wonderful boys. I am blessed to be called mom. I am elated I get to be their mom. They spoiled me yesterday with gifts, cards, flowers, hugs and kisses. I love them over and over again for it.
But yesterday was not "happy", not at all. In fact, it was a horrible Mother's Day. It was a stinging reminder that I was no longer pregnant. It was a stomp on the heart that Carrie was dead. It was painful to think about all the things we will miss without her in our lives.
Today, it's been 2 months since she passed away and on Wednesday, it will be two months since I held her tiny little body in my hands. It's a human thing to do, but I don't need to keep record of it. God knows. He knows her, and myself, so much better than I can record. He knows how much she is missed and He knows how many hearts still hurt. Brad said a prayer last week that went something like "Dear God, I love mommy and I miss the baby. Amen"
Sometimes simplicity says it best. Thank you God for my boys. Thank you for the time we had with Carrie. Thank you for healing her. We miss her. Amen.
4 comments:
I think about her every day...I can't imagine what you and Keith must go through :(
When you are feeling lonely and sad, please remember there is someone missing and loving you.
Give those boys a big ol' hug for me.
:0 ( Bless your heart.
I am with Kim...I think about Carrie everyday. My heart aches for you, Keith and the boys. She knows how much you love and miss her and she is waiting for you - she is safe in His arms.
Thinking of you friend.
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