I hope I never grow tired of hearing Cole sing to Taylor Swift without a care in the world. Even that dumb "grenade" song is pretty cute when he's singing it with all his might. Cole has already surpassed me in techie-know-how. He can listen to his itunes while playing soccer at the same time. We were at Grandpa Greg's house and he was face-timing Trent. Ummm.... mama can't do that.
Brad crawled into Aunt Kimi's lap and the following will forever be recorded on my heart:
Brad - I love you Aunt Kimi
Kimi - I love you Brad
Brad - I love you because you don't bother me.
I might have heard my Aunt Be say this on Christmas morning:
"I can't play with my ipad because I'm too drunk" - at 9:30am.
I am trying to clean the house and toyroom out and I feel a great rearranging coming on soon. Poor Keith. I think he'll be running back to work before January 4th!
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Not That Bad!
Told ya - well, told me! Brad is Brad and it's part of his makeup. There was OCD tendencies, but nothing enough for her to label him with Aspergers. There were some good things and some middle of the road things.
We go back in a couple weeks for a treatment plan. Not a bad day at all!
We go back in a couple weeks for a treatment plan. Not a bad day at all!
Monday, December 27, 2010
Tomorrow
I've been thinking about Brad's appointment tomorrow morning. I'm not sure how to feel about it. On one hand, we could have no answers and start all over again from scratch. On the other hand, we could get the news we dreaded, yet have an answer.
Then I just remind myself, he is the same kid as yesterday and the day before. I love him just as much today no matter what they say. God is the same God with the same plans He's knitted for Brad before he was even formed.
So, tomorrow shouldn't be a sad day. This is just part of the roller coaster of life... I'm heading up the long slow steep hill. Click, Click, Click, Click, Click. Nervous about falling. Anticipating terrifying results. Click, Click, Click, Click. Approaching the top. Click. Click..... Click. Fall. Wait a second, that wasn't so bad! It was almost fun. In fact, I would do it all over again.
Brad, thanks for making life fun. I love you and Colby Lee to God's house and back.
Then I just remind myself, he is the same kid as yesterday and the day before. I love him just as much today no matter what they say. God is the same God with the same plans He's knitted for Brad before he was even formed.
So, tomorrow shouldn't be a sad day. This is just part of the roller coaster of life... I'm heading up the long slow steep hill. Click, Click, Click, Click, Click. Nervous about falling. Anticipating terrifying results. Click, Click, Click, Click. Approaching the top. Click. Click..... Click. Fall. Wait a second, that wasn't so bad! It was almost fun. In fact, I would do it all over again.
Brad, thanks for making life fun. I love you and Colby Lee to God's house and back.
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
Empathy
We are making our Christmas gifts this year. I am sewing! I know.... I honestly feel the 7th grade Home Economics course I took has been the most helpful class! It all comes back to you. Except for one thing..
My neck and shoulders are killing me from being all hunched over at the sewing machine. It's really painful. Now I have sympathy AND empathy for sweat shop workers. Almost the exact same circumstances, huh?
If I were in a beauty pageant, I would wish for world peace and daily neck massages for those who sew all day long and such as.
My neck and shoulders are killing me from being all hunched over at the sewing machine. It's really painful. Now I have sympathy AND empathy for sweat shop workers. Almost the exact same circumstances, huh?
If I were in a beauty pageant, I would wish for world peace and daily neck massages for those who sew all day long and such as.
Monday, December 13, 2010
Testing, Testing
Is this thing on?
Well, today was Brad's evaluation. It was a 3 hour long test. She was looking not just at Aspergers, but the Dr. told me this was a wide angle test to cover just about everything.
First of all - we had to fill out these huge information packets. His teachers were given two to complete. They did. I read their answers. I'm going to vent here and then let it pass. I've been told (by his teacher) that he's just a strong willed child that is just playing me. Their answers tell a different story. Surprising to me when I ask and "everything's fine". The end.
The meeting starts with the Dr. and open free play in a toy room. She asks him questions to which he pretended like he didn't hear her. She plays with him and makes comments to which he pretended like he didn't hear her. He's in his own world. Quickly moving on to object to object.
We move to another testing room. Boring white room with no distractions. Three chairs and a table. A two way mirror/window right next to the table. Another assistant comes in to complete the test. She gives Brad a computer "game" to play and then walks out of the room. He quits the game after 20 seconds. He randomly pushes the buttons, pushes other buttons, and turns in the chair. The 5 minute game is over and we move on to several other tests. Listening, matching, writing, rhyming, spelling, counting, building....
Brad checked out 10 minutes into the test. He would just randomly answers some things and just repeat what she said the other half of the test. At one point I was hiding my face from laughing. Brad decided just to repeat everything she said and wouldn't answer her. He threw is finger at answers when I KNOW he knew what was being asked of him.
There were several questions not at his age level, so I'm guessing it was to see where he was on intelligence. Because he could not, choose not to focus, I know he missed 90% of the questions asked of him. He would randomly answer hard questions correctly, but would say "I don't know" "It's too hard" "I'm tired" when he was asked to count to SIX! Please, the child counted to 31 when he was 2!
I have no idea what they are going to conclude from this evaluation. My gut feeling is for sure ADD. At home he plays for hours and watches long movies, he plays outside and with his brother all day long, but watching him trying to complete a small task was painful. My heart hurt for him.
So that was a long couple of hours. We go back in a couple weeks for the results of the evaluation.
Signing off to bathe the children....
Well, today was Brad's evaluation. It was a 3 hour long test. She was looking not just at Aspergers, but the Dr. told me this was a wide angle test to cover just about everything.
First of all - we had to fill out these huge information packets. His teachers were given two to complete. They did. I read their answers. I'm going to vent here and then let it pass. I've been told (by his teacher) that he's just a strong willed child that is just playing me. Their answers tell a different story. Surprising to me when I ask and "everything's fine". The end.
The meeting starts with the Dr. and open free play in a toy room. She asks him questions to which he pretended like he didn't hear her. She plays with him and makes comments to which he pretended like he didn't hear her. He's in his own world. Quickly moving on to object to object.
We move to another testing room. Boring white room with no distractions. Three chairs and a table. A two way mirror/window right next to the table. Another assistant comes in to complete the test. She gives Brad a computer "game" to play and then walks out of the room. He quits the game after 20 seconds. He randomly pushes the buttons, pushes other buttons, and turns in the chair. The 5 minute game is over and we move on to several other tests. Listening, matching, writing, rhyming, spelling, counting, building....
Brad checked out 10 minutes into the test. He would just randomly answers some things and just repeat what she said the other half of the test. At one point I was hiding my face from laughing. Brad decided just to repeat everything she said and wouldn't answer her. He threw is finger at answers when I KNOW he knew what was being asked of him.
There were several questions not at his age level, so I'm guessing it was to see where he was on intelligence. Because he could not, choose not to focus, I know he missed 90% of the questions asked of him. He would randomly answer hard questions correctly, but would say "I don't know" "It's too hard" "I'm tired" when he was asked to count to SIX! Please, the child counted to 31 when he was 2!
I have no idea what they are going to conclude from this evaluation. My gut feeling is for sure ADD. At home he plays for hours and watches long movies, he plays outside and with his brother all day long, but watching him trying to complete a small task was painful. My heart hurt for him.
So that was a long couple of hours. We go back in a couple weeks for the results of the evaluation.
Signing off to bathe the children....
Thursday, December 9, 2010
10,000 Cole's
Have I ever mentioned what a good kid Cole is? He is great. I never worry about him. I pray for his future and his protection, but I'm not worried he won't make friends, or find something overly difficult. I'm not worried that he won't do well in school, or not do well on his team. Things come naturally to him.
He's also sweet. He's so great with Brad. He has a friend that calls all the time for a playdate. Cole has never even asked for anyone to come over to play (or to go to someone else's house). He is perfectly content playing with his best friend Brad. They play from the moment they wake up to the minute they fall asleep. He watches out for his little brother and shares all his toys.
If something goes wrong, I know Cole will be the easy kid to change his plans/toy/direction. He just goes with the flow. I find him terribly quick witted
I adore my Colby. If I could have 10,000 of him, I would. He's that much fun.
He's also sweet. He's so great with Brad. He has a friend that calls all the time for a playdate. Cole has never even asked for anyone to come over to play (or to go to someone else's house). He is perfectly content playing with his best friend Brad. They play from the moment they wake up to the minute they fall asleep. He watches out for his little brother and shares all his toys.
If something goes wrong, I know Cole will be the easy kid to change his plans/toy/direction. He just goes with the flow. I find him terribly quick witted
I adore my Colby. If I could have 10,000 of him, I would. He's that much fun.
Thursday, December 2, 2010
Getting Somewhere!
Today Brad had another appointment. Last time I went in with so many questions and came out with none answered and 1,000s more floating around in my head. (sidenote: God Bless Hilary for listening daily to every last one of them!)
I had zero expectations about our meeting today. I turned in the in depth information packet and talked some more about Brad's good days and his bad days. Her recommendation:
He displays Aspergers tendencies and she wants to have him fully evaluated. I feel relief. Odd. I was expecting to cry or for her to tell me I was crazy. The sense of guilt was lifted because today has been a good day. A hidden answer for "bad days" could be in sight. A reason other than bad parenting of a strong willed child could be the root of all this....
I'm relieved. I am hopeful for answers. I am ready for whatever challenges or battles I need to fight for/with my baby. I do reserve the right to my cry moments, just not today.
I had zero expectations about our meeting today. I turned in the in depth information packet and talked some more about Brad's good days and his bad days. Her recommendation:
He displays Aspergers tendencies and she wants to have him fully evaluated. I feel relief. Odd. I was expecting to cry or for her to tell me I was crazy. The sense of guilt was lifted because today has been a good day. A hidden answer for "bad days" could be in sight. A reason other than bad parenting of a strong willed child could be the root of all this....
I'm relieved. I am hopeful for answers. I am ready for whatever challenges or battles I need to fight for/with my baby. I do reserve the right to my cry moments, just not today.
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